Never enough time...

Recently, I saw a post over at the Mommy Page that hit me like a ton of bricks.

Ever since I returned from maternity leave, I’ve felt as if I just can’t keep up. I’ve been beating myself up that I’m not spending enough time with my daughter, not reading enough books to her, not taking her to the park enough, not doing enough crafts, not capturing enough memories through video and pictures and just not being with her enough…

Time has been flying by and I finally see what my own parents tried to tell me for so many years. It seems with one blink 6 months has flown by, then a year and now nearly 16 months. After reading about how we are only blessed with 940 Saturdays with our little ones before they head off to college (yes, that’s right – that is the number of weekends you’ll have with your little one from birth until they graduate), I decided I am going to stop beating myself up with the “not enoughs” and start living in the moment. Instead of wishing for more days, I’m going to enjoy every single minute of my Saturday and Sunday with my daughter and giving thanks that I am blessed with those days. 

You see, I feel it’s so easy to get caught up on the ifs – if I only had more time – if I could only stay at home – if I could only be with her more – that it’s easy to lose sight of the day and moment you are in. Constantly wishing for something that is not obtainable for us now and beating myself up for not doing more only brings me down and does not make me a better mom… but focusing on the time I do have with my daughter, the fun we have, the laughter we share, the learning experiences and sweet loving moments – those moments no matter how short – are moments that will carry me through a lifetime of busyness.

15 Months - Happy & Healthy

Isla had her 15 month check up today. She is growing beautifully! Her measurements seem to be consistently in the same percentile for all categories.

Weight 24.8 - 75%
Height 31.25 - 75% (projected to be 5'4 - 5'6 as an adult)
Head Circumference - 25-50% (she has a little peanut head)

As I sat Isla up on the scale, I was amazed at how much she had grown. I could picture her as a newborn as she sat in the same positioning as she did for her very 1st check-up. Time is flying by and every day I am amazed at the beautiful and smart little girl she is. I hope 20 years from now, I can close my eyes and drift back to these sweet memories. This truly is the best days of my life thus far. 

Letters to Isla Rae - 15 months

Isla Rae, 

At 15 months you have so much energy. I love to watch you running (yes, running!) up and down the halls making it known that you are having so much fun with every step. I love to chase you and Bella around the house and hear your sweet giggles as I get closer and closer to you. 

You are so loving and sweet. You love to snuggle, lay your head over on my shoulder and give hugs and kisses. When you give me a hug or a kiss you always exaggerate by saying, “mmmwahhh.”

You have become more of a picky eater and it’s become challenging to get you to eat your veggies. You still like avocados (some days), potatoes and carrots. You love fruit. I can normally get you to eat any kind of berries and watermelon. I try to sneak some veggies in by giving them to you in a smoothie and his has worked for the most part. You also LOVE yogurt, cheese and macaroni or really any kind of pasta.

You can still wear size 12 months, but for the most part I dress you in 18 month items right now. You’ve been holding steady around 22-23lbs for a while now. You haven’t slimmed down since you started walking like everyone said you would – and I’m glad. I think you look adorable.

Bella is definitely your best friend. You love to sit beside her, pet her and chase her. We’re trying to teach you to pet her easily because you get so excited your petting is more of a smack. Bella is so good around you though. She has the sweetest nature to her and she protects you. We’re so happy that the two of you love each other so much.

Newest thing you are doing this month is talking more…. Lately, you’ve been saying “I know” a lot!

You started saying it right after I said it to you one day and now you say it all the time. It’s so funny to hear you going around the house repeating it over and over again… I know, I know, I know.

I hope you always know how much I love you. You are my heart and soul and I cherish every single minute the Lord blesses us to be together every day. I hope you always know and feel how much you are loved and how special you are. You are one of a kind!

Love you,

Momma

Little sentences...

Lately, Isla has started putting little sentences together. Here are a few combinations she has been using that brighten my day every time I hear her sweet voice.

"help me"
"me uppy" (this one is so cute)
"more please"
"I got it"
"love you" (my favorite!)

So Proud!

This weekend, we are heading to Whitelake, NC for a little R&R ,time with family and friends and... for my husband to compete in his second triathlon at Whitelake!

He has been training for over 18 weeks now and everyday he amazes me with his dedication and strong will. His commitment to be great and do great is just one more reason why I love him. Not only has he been committed to training, but his commitment to being a great husband and father has never wavered as he was undergoing a demanding training schedule. His dedication to our family, his work, my honey-do list and his personal endeavors is so admirable and I know I can always count on him.   I am so impressed and proud of all of his accomplishments.

 Isla and I are looking forward to watching from the sidelines and cheering him on as he conquers yet another great milestone.

Not sure why, but the clip from Robin Hood came to mind when writing this post - YAY DAD!