Isla has been doing wonderful at day care… so wonderful that
it’s almost made me feel a little bit inadequate. She does things for her
caretakers that she won’t do for me. She’s
so attached to me and when I am around she only wants me… and she wants me
non-stop. To hold her, rock her, feed her and show her attention. In light of
all the things she is learning and doing at her childcare it made me think, am I
doing something wrong? Can I be doing more?
I’ve also been starting to think about Isla’s first birthday
party. What can I say… I’m a planner! While perusing pinterest, I've found so many moms
that pull off extravagant birthday parties, make decadent cakes and have homemade
everything. This too makes me feel like I
fall short. Getting a full day’s work in and making dinner with a little help
from Betty Crocker is a big accomplishment for me.
So all in all, I had been feeling pretty down this week. Down on
myself as a mom for not doing enough or not doing things “right”, down on
myself for not being #1 wife and down on myself for not spending more time with
my friends or just having some me time. But then, The Better Mom website lifted
me up as it so often does. I read the post most recent post by Ruth Schwenk and watched Sally
Clarkson’s video and immediately I had renewed strength, purpose and confidence
in myself. I know now that I am doing a good job, following God’s grace and giving
motherhood my all is enough! I’m looking forward to gaining even more strength on Sunday
after the The New Rules of Resolution Sermon at Elevation Church on living by grace.
Hope this post/video helps other struggling mommies too!
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